Hello guys, it has been so long since we last were together hasn’t it? At this point I think I owe it to you all to talk about what happened. But the funny thing about it all is I myself am not even sure I have fully grasped what had went on yet.
First of all I would really like to thank the people who reached out to me find out if I was okay, I truly appreciated that.
I also am grateful that I wasn’t pressed but was allowed to come to terms with everything on my own.
We are at this stage where it is difficult to breathe and not be called out for it so yes I am appreciative, grateful and thankful.
Secondly, I am late … so late but Happy New year to everyone. The year is still fresh and however the first half begun, don’t stress over it. Just take each day one step at a time. Also Happy valentine. If you happened to not have received any chocolate or wish whatsoever, don’t stress. I am here to dose on you all the love you deserve 🍫❤.
WHAT HAPPENED?
So no I didn’t just decide to be MIA. Mid-November last year was really trying and funny. That continued through December into January this year and was still dripping in my February (the love month, I mean come on).
It’s one thing to have some understanding when mishaps occur and it’s another to be bombarded with one thing or the other and not really have context or consistency to it you know.
It was like a three-tier cake of work drama, trifling bout of joy, trauma and the cherry on top was this overwhelming sense of meaninglessness.
So yes, it threw me of my game.
We won’t always have the answers. Things won’t always make sense.
And it is honestly okay to just dial it down. Take a break. Breathe and relax. Of load your mind. Get away. Shut down. Go to your safe space. Really anything that can serve as a relaxant. Forget about the judgement, it is there everyday, and they won’t really miss you that much because they are just going to find someone else. But you missing yourself is not going to be there everyday.
I have learnt more from what happened (that we should seriously be doing constantly), gained deeper and newer perspective and nuances on themes that should I have tackled before I would have probably digress from the thought process I have now. I have also opened my eyes to subjects and topics that had always been closed of to me for whatever reasons ( I don’t know😆) and am prepared to give my maximum best for everyone and of course myself.
So yes I am back and really happy. I had a hymn that really resonated deeply with me for a couple of days ago but I can’t for the life of me find it but when I do, I would post it for you all to enjoy.
Hey I said I AM BACK 😘.
Also check out; “2020” !!! COME AND BE GOING
I refuse to not see life as cupcakes and rainbows 😁😁😁.
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